August 24th, 2010 by jewels9445
Wow we had our first baby shower this weekend and it was amazing! So many people love our little girl already. It’s kind of overwhelming but wonderful. I still have two more to go! It looks like Babies R Us threw up all over our living room.
Eve will be here in 6 and a half weeks. It’s getting close! Anthony is working hard on the nursery. All the drawing is almost done but now we have to paint. Eek!
I feel like a whale but have only gained 24 lbs overall so my doctor is happy. She’s moving around a lot lately so that’s always good. Other than being pregnant everything else is good. Work is busy and I am preparing to be out from October - January. That will be a nice break from the office, not that I will be bored!
Yesterday it was 107 degrees with a heat index of 115. Today it’s 105 already. Tonight we are getting a “cold front” so it will be 96 tomorrow….I may need a freaking sweater!
Here are some pics from the shower!
Anthony and Julie
Family Seuss
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February 19th, 2010 by jewels9445
I had my first doctor’s appointment today. I was so scared that they would do an ultrasound and find that I really wasn’t pregnant or something. I had dreams and everything and barely slept. Well I got there and they did everything and the ultrasound looked perfect. I saw the baby and I saw it’s little heartbeat. It was amazing. It feels so real now and I am so looking forward to being a mommy.
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December 7th, 2009 by jewels9445
I finally had my surgery on December 2nd. They did a D&C, Laperoscopy and something else with a really long name that I can’t remember. I got there and they put me under fairly quickly at 7am. I woke up in a lot more pain that I thought. I had a nasty incision through my belly button, one on the left side on my bikini line and one on my pubic bone…yes pubic bone and it hurts like a BITCH. I was sore as hell and they gave me lots of good drugs.
I thought I could go back to work on Friday and boy was I wrong. I was in so much pain not only from the cuts but the scraping and cleaning out of my body left me in 18 kinds of pain with cramps and the whole nine yards.
She basically said that they did find signs of endometriosis again and removed them. The good news is that it hadn’t wrapped around any of my major organs. The rest of everything else looks fine except my cervix. It was closed like Fort Knox I guess. Now they have opened it and think that should do the trick. Now it’s just hoping that for Christmas I will have a baby.
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November 18th, 2009 by jewels9445
I started a blog site over at blogger for my family…I don’t really want everyone reading what I write here. This one is for me but I thought I would share where I began. I know most of you from JS know the story but hey why not? I haven’t been writing lately but want to start again. A little update…I am scheduled for a Laperoscopy procedure on December 2nd at 7:15am. When they did the last procedure she said she’s seeing signs of my endometriosis coming back since I have been off the pill for so long so they scheduled it. They will hopefully be able to determine what is wrong with my fertility then.
So here we go…the Beginning.
I guess I should start from the beginning. Of course just saying that leads to the question of what beginning am I talking about? There are so many for any person. I am going to start at the beginning of the journey I am on right now.
I met my husband sort of on a fluke. A friend of mine asked me to set up a profile on plentyoffish.com, a free dating site, because he wanted to know what I thought of it. He was going to try to make his own dating site and wanted to use this model as sort of a template. That never happened but I did create a profile.
I weeded through the typical ridiculous chat requests with men that ranged from needy, perverse, emotionally unstable, angry, too nice, too whatever and stumbled one day upon Anthony. I think my first chat to him was something about his tattoos. I was intrigued by all of the ink on his body. I had never really been interested in men with tattoos but I sent him a message with the ultra clever line of “hey nice ink” or something that made me want to cringe after I hit send. I do think that I had a couple of glasses of wine that night or so I like to tell myself now.
He responded with something snarky and we started IM’ing each other almost everyday. I kind of thought he was a jerk online but I know now he’s just a very direct person. After two weeks of that I finally just said “So are we going to meet or not?” because I was just not wanting to just IM someone all the time without meeting him.
He gave me a few options of where we would go and we settled on this little BYOB Italian place called Joe’s Pizza. I was nervous driving there but also a little annoyed that I was even going. I don’t know if it was because he seemed so standoffish, but I was curious. When he got out of his car I see this 6″4 blonde with spiky hair walking towards me. He was wearing a tank top (to show off his tats I guess) and his motorcylce boots (he doesn’t own a motorcycle). When he first spoke I was shocked by how low his voice was. I was even more intrigued now.
We ordered our pizza and then sat there for a good two hours just talking. In person he was very warm, genuine and smart. We talked about a lot of different things and then found out that we had the exact same birthday (one year apart). After taking up booth space for that long we decided to go back to his mom’s house and watch a movie. The whole time I was driving there I was thinking “What am I doing?” but I went anyways. We watched V for Vendetta and listened to music. My stomach was in knots because I realized I really liked this guy. I had been alone for so long that I wasn’t really ready to feel that way, but I did.
I left his house by sneaking out really early in the morning which we joke about now. That day I was giddy but nervous. Would he call me again? Would this really work out? He’s not my typical type etc. All these thoughts going on in my head.
We didn’t hang out that next night but after that we were together every single day. My lease was up 6 weeks later. Three weeks into dating him I was looking for an apartment and he had been talking about moving out of his mom’s house so he just said “Why don’t we look for a place together?” I was shocked he would suggest that and a little taken aback. I didn’t know what to think. Financially it made sense because we were staying together every single night anyways so why each pay rent?
Other people in our lives didn’t think highly of this decision but we didn’t really care. We signed a year lease three weeks after we met and didn’t look back. We did get a two bedroom in case something went horribly wrong, but it didn’t.
That’s a good beginning so far.
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October 5th, 2009 by jewels9445
My beloved red headed friend, our very own Puppyshark, ventured out to my new house yesterday. She brought a great Zinfandel and we sat on my couch catching up on life, love and gossip.
It is so easy sometimes to just go on with your life and realize that you don’t have time to catch up with some people. I think it’s way worth just carving out a good two hours every so often to do nothing but get together with a good friend.
We rehashed some very fond memories of my last minute trip to see her for the first time with a broken heart and a craving for girl time. That was the most spontaneous thing I have ever done in my life and so worth it. We drank our faces off, ate crab omelettes, shared clams and oysters, drove around town and caused lots of trouble. From there we started a life long friendship that I so appreciate.
I count myself lucky to have this woman in my life as a friend. In the short four years I have known her I have found a trust that is hard to find. We are vaults and enjoy the time to share things with each other we aren’t able to share with most people in our lives. I have watched this beautiful woman go through a lot of things and emerge on the other side stronger than she was before if that is possible.
I will say too that she is a wonderful and caring mother, the newest chapter in her life. The way she talks about her son makes me so happy that things have worked out the way they did. I mean I also want to hate her too because she’s still hot as hell after having a baby not very long ago, but should we expect anything less from her?
Pups we have to do that more often. I had a great time.
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September 22nd, 2009 by jewels9445
I see it coming into my vision. The light at the end of the home buying tunnel. The title company received funds from the state yesterday for our tax credit. The bank did the final employment verification and sent all of our funds. They also sent an email saying that since our process was so difficult the bank is knocking $500 off of our closing costs and were able to get us down to 5% APR on our loan.
We officially close on Thursday.
We have been lurking through Home Depot and decided on a beautiful gray slate tile for our master bathroom. It has flecks of gray, blue, green and gold throughout the tile and it is what we will use for our color pallette for the paint in the house. We will do a walk through tomorrow and take some measurements of the floors and windows for new treatments.
We went to look at furniture this weekend because we need a master bedroom set, dining room set and kitchen table. We already got Anthony a beautiful cherry wood desk for his office.
There are a lot of projects we will get involved with in the next few years to customize our home in the way we want it to look. New art is also a necessity but all these things will come eventually. Our kitchen will be completely redone at some point, we will build a patio with the beautiful stone that a friend of mine gave us as a house warming present.
Things are going just as we want them to go now even though the last 60 days have been a huge trauma.
We found out that Anthony’s tests all came out normal in the baby making departmant and there is a small matter I have to take care of and then we will be back on track in that department as well.
In sad news we got a call that Anthony’s 89 year old grandmother was admitted to hospice yesterday with congestive heart failure. She is the most amazing and interesting woman. She survived the blitz in Europe. She is from England. She had my husbands father in Peru, two more children in South Africa and another in South America because she and her husband traveled all over the world with his mineral business. They settled in El Paso when Robin (Anthony’s dad) was about 10 I believe. She was a tenured professor of English at UTEP and still put on the Gilbert and Sullivan play production for the city this year. She has done it since they started the company.
She never ceases to amaze us with her life, her brilliant attitude and her love of high tea and wine with every meal. She is a true soul and I wish there was something I could do to make her journey a little better in the end. I wish that Anthony could go see her before she passes. We are trying to make this happen.
Visiting El Paso will never be the same without her. She was the glue. Out of her 4 boys she buried two of them (Anthony’s father when he was only 40 from skin cancer and Chris only two years later.). She is the strength of that side of the family. She built a wonderful foundation and I hope to see her again as well.
I will post pictures once I get into the house.
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September 8th, 2009 by jewels9445
I am not going into the whole story but basically the stupid Bank (insert major lending bank’s name here) has lost numerous sets of our paperwork in this whole home buying process. Since we are using the tax credit it is taking longer than normal to close. The closing was supposed to be on Sept. 15th. They told us today after much back and forth that they have to re-send the forms to the state AGAIN so closing will be closer to September 24th. The seller specifically said we had until the 15th so the drama continues.
There are much longer parts of this email but here’s the good part:
Sr. VP at bank: “I do hear your frustration - this situation is not unusual- this is what happens you buy a house - that’s why it’s considered a LIFE EVENT - like having a baby! It is a very emotional one.”
Anthony: “In the event my wife and I ever have a baby, and labor is suddenly delayed because the baby didn’t get all the faxes in time, and instead decides to shack up in my wife for an extra week, then I’ll be sure to remember, ‘Ah, so THIS is what Steven was talking about when he compared buying a home to having a baby.”
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September 3rd, 2009 by jewels9445
I have been lurking around my life. Looking in on myself and not really feeling connected to any of it. I packed and cleaned out my old house. Anthony and I had to be out by August 31st when our lease was up and we went ahead and got out a little earlier so we could clean and be a little less stressed. Four trips with a U-Haul trailer over two weekends and twelve hours of cleaning and we are out. We should be getting our deposit back soon.
We moved in to his mother’s house until our closing for the new house which is supposed to be on September 15th. Hopefully that will happen because I am going nuts. It’s both of us and four dogs in his old bedroom. I have no privacy and let’s just say the baby making stuff we need to do is hard when you can hear his mom on the other side of the wall in the kitchen and there are four dogs scratching on the door.
I need my own space and I know it’s coming, it just can’t come soon enough. At least we are saving some money.
Work is hectic and crazy. The economy has really just put advertising in the toilet for 2009 and we are recovering slowly but surely. We have three people on vacation so it’s just my boss and I and I do the main day-to-day stuff so it’s really just me overseeing a ton of stuff and accounts and money. It’s crazy so say the least.
I did hear back from my doctor and the good news is my tubes are not blocked. The radiologist tech was just an idiot so that’s a relief because that would have required major surgery etc. She did tell me that I have to have cervical dialation which is a procedure they do in her office. It’s not pleasant but not terrible. Anthony will get his tests back next week so if we are both good to go after that we try another three cycles or so and then they bring out the big guns. I don’t know what that means but something about meds and more invasive procedures so I am just hoping this all works this time around.
I think maybe it’s been a blessing in disguise that I am not pregnant right in the middle of buying a house and the craziness of work and stress right now. I am getting there but I am not patient. When I want something, I want it now. I am learning patience and the fact that I can’t plan everything.
I miss all of you. Catching up and reading. I will try to check in more just for my own peace. I need to write more. I need to let these thoughts and pressures out because I just let it build and build until I explode.
Tonight we have a date. Just the two of us at the little hole in the wall Italian Restaurant where we met. BYOB and a great atmosphere. I can’t wait to go on a date with my husband.
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August 12th, 2009 by jewels9445
That we got the loan! They delivered the title stating “Loan Approved” and then this morning Anthony got an overnight package with our actual loan paperwork that we will have to fill out now and then right before closing so they can make sure that we still have a job and won’t be dead beats on the mortgage I guess.
That’s SO exciting. I have spent the afternoon adding things to my Amazon wish list with my handy Universal Button so I can add anything from any website. It just gives Anthony and I a way to quickly see if our opinions match. Not very exciting to be comparing notes on kitchen sinks and faucets for the bathroom but hey it works.
In other news my nurse called me back today and said my pap, and my blood work were perfect. I mentioned the HSG and she said the hospital hasn’t sent over the X-Rays just yet. I told her what they told me about the blocked tube and she said they shouldn’t be sharing their opinion until the actual doctor looks at it and she would be discussing this with my doctor. She didn’t sound pleased that they did that to me. I guess at least I feel better that I know they shouldn’t have said that to me.
I got home last night and my lovely husband ran a bath for me and let me have some alone time in the tub which was nice. Our tub stopper doesn’t work very well so it drained a little too fast for me but it was okay. I got out once the first fat roll started to show. HA. He laughed at me when I said that and said I was silly but ladies you know what I am talking about? When you sit a certain way it’s just not fun to look down and see that. He thinks I am perfect and that’s why I love him but I do still want to lose some weight. It just creeps on slowly pound by pound since I turned 30 and then all the sudden you go “wow I need to lose 20 lbs”. I just want to feel better in my clothes. Is that too much to ask?
Maybe I should use my gym membership here at the office? Maybe I shouldn’t have had a taco salad with cheese and sour cream on it for lunch today? Hmmm yeah I suck at dieting.
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August 10th, 2009 by jewels9445
I had my HSG tests today. That was not fun. I won’t go into the details but they use contrast to show your tubes and make sure that the fluid goes through them. The Radiologist walked in two seconds before the exam, gave me some directions and then took off her gloves and said “Well your uterus looks fine but that right tube is getting no fluid and is blocked but no big deal because you only need one tube to get pregnant right?” I just looked at her and said “what does that mean?”. She said “well it is blocked but maybe the contrast just leaked into the left one. I will go over the results with your doctor.”
What does this mean? To me it means I have only one tube that works and that means the year we have been trying is going to just turn into more issues. Of course when you are supposed to have 2 that work and you only have one that means you have 50% chance less to me. Of course I know I am being panicked but what a horrible experience.
I got in my car and I was just shocked. I was going to go back to work but I didn’t. I got in my car and just sat there. I didn’t cry, I didn’t do anything. I just was sitting there with a new knowledge of my body that I didn’t understand. It wasn’t explained to me and I just have to wait to hear what it all means.
Of course I got home and started searching online. NEVER do this. It’s never a good idea. I was reading of surgery and being down for 6 weeks and scopes going places they shouldn’t go or IVF which is thousands and thousands of dollars with no end in sight and lots of information that I didn’t understand.
I am lost.
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